Learning to Fly

Hey Everyone!

So the past few weeks have had highs and lows, and I feel like kinda summing them up here for y'all. I'm going to try and make it sound the way I feel about it now, and not at the moment. This is a good practice for when we feel frustrated with something in life and know we will fly off the handle if we address the issue at the moment. Time allows us to gain perspective, and while drastic actions at the moment may have a big impact, they can also cause more damage than good. As a Peace Corps Volunteer one of my main responsibilities is to do no harm, and sometimes it is important to take problems on the chin and deal with them in a more planned out and precise manner.

So starting off the Electronic Repair class I've started has been a lot of fun! So much so that in the first class I went over the 1 hour class time and continued teaching until it was almost dark. I love seeing people who are motivated and want to grow and share in the learning process. Thankfully the people in that class are super motivated to learn how to think critically about the repair process and I am so proud of their passion. On the other hand, I got a good old dose of reality after coming back from Dili a couple weeks ago and finding out that the kids in my English class skipped out on the course I had planned for them. I had taken the time to find someone to replace me for that week, and so the next week I had the person I asked to do the class teach the same lesson in front of me while I watched. It is extremely important to practice and one of the best ways to practice is to teach and share the knowledge you have. Unfortunately, bad habits that are learned from a young age are some of the hardest to change. I can only hope that they can start to understand the importance of practice and will take that into their teen and adult years.

More of a personal accomplishment was the recipes I tried recently! I have made cheese with my host family, and although not all of them ate it (there is a huge fear of trying new things from what I've experienced) my host niece loves it! Along with that, I have currently started to attempt winemaking! I'm super excited and hopeful that this recipe turns out well. Not only that, but my host father and brother want to learn the process (which I'm also trying out for the first time). I'll keep you all updated on it, but after seeing the amount of CO2 this thing is spitting out, I'm very hopeful.

Aside from that, the compost project has hit a little bit of a snag. A few weeks ago I put up a signup sheet for people to choose which month they want to help turn over and water the compost. Unfortunately, after checking about a minute ago approximately 0 people have signed up. This has been disheartening because of the amount of effort and planning we went through to get this project started. This is also paired with the discovery that even after the training we hosted there is a lot of litter that is around the office. This is after the literal blood, sweat and tears I've put into these projects, and had I known that nobody really wanted this then I could have saved time digging out the pit and cleaning up all the trash on the property. The unfortunate part is that I was told the opposite, I had a lot of excitement and support for the project, just to have it stagnate because nobody wants to contribute. These are the moments where ignorance would make understanding this issue a lot easier because I could just tell myself that the people here like living in filth. For critical thinkers though, this kind of assumption feels empty because it would be easy and obviously false. So here I am wondering where I went wrong and trying to reevaluate my projects before I sink the same amount of effort into them just to have little to no participation.

I know there is a reason for this, and I suppose my next post will address that (hopefully). However, I think this is a good lesson for us all to share because even though I have rarely experienced this issue before, Expectations are always a struggle to manage when reality rears its ugly head. Things often seem a lot better or a lot worse in our minds because we are wired for extremes. Just like when our ancestors had to be wary of the tiger in the brush, or find the motivation to make discoveries we too are programmed to hype up the highs and exaggerate the lows. I am no exception to this rule, so the way I will handle this will be flawed and misconstrued in some way. The biggest difference I see in people are the ones who take their failures and learn from them so that they can tweak their future attempts and those that use their failures to reinforce their fear to attempt something again. I know which option I try to take, and I only hope that I can use my opportunities to fail in order to shine hope on those that are instead afraid of their mistakes. So with that being said, I'll talk to you soon, and until then I'll leave you with this.

Failure is simply the opportunity to begin again, this time more intelligently. 

~Henry Ford

Much Love,

~BW

Cannibal Chicken!!

Hey Everyone,

So the past few weeks have had a lot of things happen, thereby making it difficult to choose which photos to include. I have more photos then what are below, but I chose these because I think they tell the story pretty well. On top of that, I would like to thank all the people who follow me here, this blog is not only a tool for future PCV's to use but also this platform allows me to keep track of my journey here. So thank you again, and let's move onto what happened in the last couple of weeks.

The first picture is of a church near to a potential future site here in Baucau that was really interesting to visit. The school is requesting an education volunteer and have a lot of opportunities for that volunteer to build capacity and help make some real improvements. The thing about any community is that any action needs to be 50% on the volunteer and 50% on the community members involved. However, often change can only get started with a big push from the volunteer, kinda like how a candle needs to be lit before it can provide light. I had to do most of the work when lighting the candle, but after it was lit the candle kept on burning. In this way, many projects start around 80/20 and then slowly make their way to the community taking 100% initiative. This is, of course, dependant on the project and the willingness of the community members to try something new.

That juxtaposes easily into my update on the compost project from the last post! The compost is going strong and making a really nice amount of heat and progress which is visible in the 2nd and 3rd photos. The pile has shrunk by a large margin and therefore has more room for new material to be added. I have put a pause on some of my other projects for the last few weeks to make sure that the compost pit will be able to have beautiful soil by the time we start planting again in the research garden. In a couple weeks, I plan on visiting Dili and will be visiting an agricultural store the purportedly has a compost thermometer and some other cool tools that I hope to use to make this project successful!

However, projects here require participation from the people in the office, and so this initiative depends solely on how well my coworkers adapt to this new responsibility in their office. This is best seen in the other part of this initiative to clean up the streets of Baucau, the recycling project. Operation "Usa Fali" is our attempt to get the office to recycle their trash as opposed to just tossing it on the ground, which seems to be the norm for many Timorese. In the photos below you can see some of the trash that we were able to clean up from the ground, but what really gave me hope for this project is when the office was willing to sort the trash with me! We have also begun construction of 4 garbage bins which will be for plastic, glass, metal, and paper. The hard part of recycling here in East Timor is that there isn't anywhere to bring a lot of this trash for it to be processed, and so it rests on our shoulders to find a way to reuse and correctly dispose of the unnatural waste we create. Thankfully for a lot of this waste, we can use our compost pit to create new soil for the corn we will be planting in a few months. I hope that people will be more invested in this process once they see the difference that making your own fertilizer can make have on the cost and yield of farming.

Lastly, are a few cool things that happened apart from my projects here.  I went on a hike with the other PCV's in Baucau to Foho Ariana and took some amazing photos that were honestly breathtaking. We had a blast, and it makes me excited to see the new group come in, even though I'm also sad to see my friends in this group leave. I wish you all the best of luck and look forward to seeing the majority of you at creativity night!! Apart from that sweet trip, I also met a chicken who likes to eat chicken. Although I appreciate his taste in meats, I probably won't be associating with him in the future due to the whole cannibal thing. I suppose that's pretty much it, so I look forward to seeing you all next week and until then I'll leave you with this!

Life begins at the end of your comfort zone. 

~Neale Donald Walsch

Much Love,

~BW

Compost Haven

Hello Everyone!

So this last week has been pretty eventful for a few different reasons!  Fist off my host family and I went to the beach and had a great time.  With the sand between our toes and the feeling of the tide as it slowly abates the land we walk upon, made the day a holistic practice in the balance between work and relaxation. The thing that burns out a lot of people is getting to wrapped up in work and being unable to relax, which in turn lessons our ability to be effective and resilient when handling the ebbs and flows of life.  We finished the trip to the beach by doing a little fishing and having our lunch on the beach, it was an awesome trip and honestly much needed. The pictures below show some of the awesome views that we were able to see, and even though you weren't there, I hope they can help your day go smoothly.

The other pictures down below are about from the newest project I've been working on. You've probably already deduced the project, but I'll start form the beginning anyways to catch you all up.  So I'm walking out the  of the office and I look around at all the garbage that is just littered on the ground. You see, because Timor-leste doesn't yet have a waste management system in place, there is a lot of negative ways that trash is dealt with. Most people will burn their trash, along with most anything else that is thrown away, and often times here in the Villa people don't tend to bring their trash back home with them. So most times trash is just thrown on the streets and stays there because very few people want to deal with it.

I began thinking of how we could deal with the waste in the office and hopefully make a new model for waste management around the community so I proposed the idea of cleaning up the trash in the office to my counter part who loved the idea. along with this we decided to start a compost pit to take care of all the biodegradable things that would often be wither burned of littered. With that we set out to clean up the office, and after 2 days and 6-7 bags of trash later we finally have a relatively clean office, and although changing the habit of littering will take a while, I believe we can make a difference!  Along with that the compost pit was a fun way of not only getting everyone involved in recycling, but will also serve as a great tool for the communities that CDB works with. Below is a video that shows a lot of the recent progress we have made on the compost area and notes the places people will be able to leave their green and brown waste.

The idea for this pit came from the RED Gardens you tube channel, so shout out to them for inspiring me to start this project.  The main issue is getting people to adopt a foreign idea, so I am hoping that the simple rule of, "Anything that was Previously Alive" (Buat ruma uluk moris) will allow people to have an easier time of adopting this method. Along with that I have been talking to a lot of co-workers about the belief that, since God blessed us with this land, we in turn should respect it and treat it life the gift it is.  This I feel has been effective in getting people to understand where I'm coming from when I talk about how important recycling and composting is to keeping Timor-leste the beautiful island paradise it can be!

So yeah, things have been exciting and I look forward to getting back to building the server! However, seeing the rebirth that comes from the compost pit in the form of nutrient rich soil will be a good driver for the days when I question how much I'm really doing here. Like I said at the beginning of this post, having that balance of work and relaxation if important so as not to get burnt out. So for any prospective Peace Corps volunteers I have this advice, look after yourself and in turn you will be better able to look after those you care about. I've been blathering on enough, so I'll just leave you with this until next time!

Optimism is the faith that leads to achievement. Nothing can be done without hope and confidence. ~Helen Keller

Much love,

~BW

P.S. The last picture is of a huge spider we saw at Amalia's in Baucau, the thing was bigger than my hand!! It's called a Giant Golden Orb Weaver, so click the link if you're not afraid of huge spiders!!

Getting Things Organized

Hey Everyone,

So it's been a couple weeks since my last post and for the most part not much has changed. I was able to get the VRF, AVS and Living Allowance Survey done which was a big relief. I'm still working on the server of course since it will be taking a lot of time to code alone. However I have recently been working with one of my coworkers on learning how to upkeep the server when I'm gone. This has been a lot of fun because within my lessons with him we are covering the basics of HTML, CSS, PHP, JavaScript and SQL (using MySQL). Like most things the amount to which we practice alone will determine the speed to which we pick up these skills. So to help facilitate his practice I've turned him onto a few tools including one I would recommend for anyone who is new to and interested in coding, and that is FreeCodeCamp. Not only is the learning hands on, but it also allows you the opportunity to become certified in the language your trying to learn for the extremely high price of $0.00. So obviously I recommend you check that out if you have some free time, even if you're only mildly interested in programming.

The pictures below were from yesterday when we celebrated the 20th anniversary of Caritas Diocesana de Baucau! We had mass in the morning (Wooo!), and then had a festa in the afternoon with plenty of dancing, drinking (oituan deit) and good times.  Having that time of reflection and celebration was just the thing to get everyone motivated and proud of their work, so props to my counterpart for that idea!

Beyond that I've been trying to take the initiative to organize my life here a little better. I've been setting goals and logging the work I do using ToDoList and tracking my spending (because Dili has caused me to go a little low on funds) using GnuCash. Trying to stay organized and held accountable to my own standards is easy to become lackadaisical about in this climate, but I know making the changes I plan on doing will all help me in the future and will hopefully make my stay here all that more enjoyable!

So yeah, things are going well! I will be relieved when everything has been written down, and hopefully that'll clear up the path for my future activities. The stress is real sometimes, but it's good to have a little stress, because it pushes me to move forward. It also doesn't allow me to feel comfortable with where I'm at which is a good lesson that resonated with me from the Brian series when I finished that a month ago. Food always tastes better when you're a little hungry, and things that require hard work pay back seven fold in the feeling of accomplishment that comes from achievement. So if you didn't understand any of the acronyms above or help a question about life here leave a comment below, and if I haven't talked to you for a while, hit me up! I have to go watch this dank Meme playlist. So until next time I'll leave you with this.

We first make our habits, and then our habits make us. 

~John Dryden

Much Love,

~BW

The Sky

Hello everyone,

So this has been a pretty chill week overall, but there were a few cool points. First off from the too do last week I've mostly just been working on the Server project which has been coming along pretty well. It's been fairly hard coming since I have to learn how to code in Javascript, JQuery, PHP and MySQL. Due to this the creating of the forms will take a lot less time once I understand better how to send a multidimensional array into MySQL. This week hasn't all been nerd-core though, there have also been a few exciting things to happen!

First off the three photos at the beginning of the  gallery at the bottom are some of the sites I see most days before and after work. That along with the photo a few weeks ago of Foho Matebean, you can really start to see the beauty of this country side. It's fairly obvious, but I edited the first photo to really bring out the colors of the sunset here. There are also the gorgeous star lit sky's each night which is something that's very rare to find back in the states without heading out into the country. It's these small beauties that really help to counteract the loneliness and occasional frustration that comes from working in a foreign country. I am however also lucky to have my friends and family to remind me of my mission here and to deter the feelings that come along with not speaking your native language for bouts of time.

I've been thinking about a few things that might add the the resourcefulness of this blog and have decided to add/change a couple of things. One of the first is to change out the Podcasts on the Short Stories page with Educational Youtube videos in English that can be gain contextual information about the English language. This change was inspired by a video I watched recently talking about a language acquisition method that will hopefully work better for any future English classes I decide to teach. Another thing I'm adding is a "Days since" counter which will hopefully map out how I've changed as the days have passed since arriving in Timor. It'll also just be cool to see how long it's been! Lastly I'll be going back and editing to the picture format of the first posts I made to match the current format because I believe it looks a lot better.

Beyond all that this project with the server has been eating up my time, but I'm sure by the end of it I'll have an amazing feeling looking back at all the hurdles I needed to jump in order to get this thing working. Let me know if there are any other changes you guy's would appreciate on my blog. This honestly is as much for all of you as it is a good way for me to articulate this experience. I'll let you all decide what would be a good idea! Send any of those idea's or idea's for future posts in the comments and I'll try to make something of them. Unfortunately I have to get back to the server... she calls me.

... ummm anyways, I'll just leave you all with this.

Optimism is the faith that leads to achievement.

Nothing can be done without hope and confidence.

~Helen Keller

Much Love,

~BW

Busy Beauty

Hey Everyone!

So the past few weeks have been fairly busy for a change which has been nice! So busy in fact that I apologize if this post turns into more of a digest than an update, but here we go. To begin let me try and list off what I have on my TDL right now;

1. Write a Blog Post (just about done!)
2. Create a Website for CDB
3. Create a Brochure for CDB
4. Write the Grant application for Karitas Korea
5. Start monitoring spending for Living Allowance Survey
6. Type up VRF
7. Create and Test CDB Server project
8. Build a case for my Guitar
9. Continue Timorese Game planning (back burner)
10. Finalize Standard Weekly Schedule

Woof, that's a lot different than even just a month ago! I am glad to have more on my plate though, it makes me feel useful and pushes me to accomplish things. The project I'm the most excited for is the server project which is what I am currently working on (besides the blog post of course). The plan is to get the server up and running in the next two weeks and to have a final version up and operational in a month. Now anyone who has either made a server or tried to plan a project will know that most likely this timeline will change. It's important to have the deadlines though because if holds me accountable to my Org. and to myself. I also plan on posting the whole thing on GitHub or passing it off to the PeaceCorp to see if they can put it in the library. Regardless I'm hoping future volunteers can use it to help their Org's as well!

Apart from that the the other projects are pretty straight forward and just need to be done. Some of them are currently being hung up which is why I'm focusing on the server project because it should cut a lot of busy work out of most peoples days giving everyone time to work on other projects. If you guys have any questions on the other projects sound off in the comments and I'll get back to you all.

On other news I noticed that a picture I posted on FB was very well received and was wondering if you would all like me to post more pictures on there and of what, so comment that as well! As for now I have to get back to working on this server, but I'll have a new post sooner than later. Until then, I'll leave you with this.

In times of great stress or adversity, it's always best to keep busy, to plow your anger and your energy into something positive. 

~Lee Iacocca

Much Love,

~BW

Potholes

Hey everyone!

So this week I have a training in Dili and now have a little time to write up this post. Last week was nice because I had a bit more work than usual. I did an interview with one of my coworkers regarding a needs analysis for a future application we hope to submit for a temporary volunteer. I also got to finally do some manual labor which was a nice change of pace!

I've seen a running stereotype in Timor where many of the people I meet think I am unable to do manual labor because I'm an American. This being laughably false I wanted to take this opportunity to show the hardworking American spirit that build our country.  The work we were doing was filling in a large pothole that has been an inconvenience for the buses and Mikrolets that use that road. We grabbed some dirt from a gracious donor and filled it in. I was getting a few of my coworkers who were trying to take the shovel from me, but I persevered and hopefully showed that I'm capable of an honest days work (as well as most Americans by proxy). See the pictures below to get a good view of the work we got done, shout out to all the CDB staff for the great work they did!

On another note I am super excited for the presentation I'm giving tomorrow on Computer Security! I've never really had the chance to give a presentation on this topic before so it'll be fun being able to bring people into the fun world of IT.  I hope to be able to make up some USB's for people that boot Bitdefender, Ubuntu and SuperGrub2 using YUMI as a boot manager. I'm also thinking of adding Portable Apps on this USB as well so if any of the volunteers interested are reading this let me know if you want any other tools! Also if anyone wants me to make some videos of Tutorials that you guys can use either in Tetun of English I'd be happy to try and make something up!!

I'm going to go play a little D&D now so until I see you all again I'll leave you all with this!

If your knees aren't green by the end of the day, you ought to seriously re-examine your life. 

~Bill Watterson

Much love,

~BW

Back on Tour!🎸

Hey Everyone,

So last Sunday we had Easter here in Timor, and the way I celebrated it was by hanging out with some friends in Dili and picking up some things that I'd been sent. The list of things I had to pick up was getting overwhelming, and so I thought by heading to Dili to get this done I could get two birds stoned at once! I ended up picking up; a Care Package from the Family (Love you guys!💗), a Kindle that one of the staff was kind enough to foti on over from the states (Thanks again!), a Guitar (see pictures), some coffee and a whole bunch of stuff. I would say that trip was a major success and one that was necessary to keep my sanity and help me to relax. This has however been the first time since IST that I've been back in the capital, and I'd say with PDM coming right around the corner that this was a good timing.

As I said I picked up a guitar in Dili, so recently I have been practicing to hopefully get confident enough to play some songs fairly well by the end of the summer. I know it will be a hard journey, but this has been something I have been wanting to do for a while. Amongst the other leisure time activities I have been engrossing myself in, I have found time to continue working on my programming skills. While I would not call myself a programmer of a certified hacker, I would probably classify myself as a Green Hat who is starting to feel more comfortable with his abilities. I have been learning a bit of Python in my free time and plan on trying to learn a little C as well in order to understand some lower level code. Along those lines as well I have been speaking to one of the PC staff (Shout out to you!) about giving a training on computer security and how to handle malware infections on your own computer and others computers. I'm super excited for this because it will give me some new experiences in manipulating VMs in order to show what a typical scan would look like and how I go about detecting and getting rid of malware that I find. Shout out to MediCat which is a Live CD I've been using as of late. I normally try to shy away from the big Live CDs and stick to a Linux Distro running Clamav, but this tool caught my eye being the spiritual predecessor to Hirens Boot CD and after seeing everything that has been packed into this labor of love I now plan on using it for all of my Windows repairs (at least when I'm able to get it too boot).

To switch gears I have been feeling more comfortable here and have been trying to keep a fairly normal schedule to make my time here as productive as possible. Although some nights this seems to been easier said than done, I do feel confident in my placement and have a bright outlook for the next couple years. Recently my Org decided to apply for Farmers to Farmers which would see us having another U.S. Volunteer here for a while, which will be exciting! Although I wish they would have let me know about it more than 2 hours before they wanted me to fill out all the paperwork. I am still excited and look forward to planning the need's analysis the we will have to complete before finishing up the rest of the paperwork. There are a few plans that are hopefully coming down the pipeline, so I'll make sure to keep you all up to date with what's going on here.

I suppose I should get this post out now, I have to finish planning the training I want to give and still have to think about what to say on here next time!😂 I love all of you and hope to hear from all of you! If anyone want's to get a hold of me you can always message me either in the comments below or privately. I actually might add a contact form on here for anyone who's interested, but that's a plan for another day. Until I post again, I'll leave you all with this!

“Without music, life would be a mistake.”

~Friedrich Nietzsche

Much Love,

~BW

Rock and Roll Star

Hey Everyone,

So this week has been pretty easy going. I've been planning classes and preparing to write a grant for CDB, but for the most part life has been pretty slow. I will say however I am extremely excited to go to Dili in a couple of weeks because I plan on picking up a Guitar which will be very fun to learn. I've been wanting to learn guitar for a while, so I decided since I have a lot of downtime here that I'd pick one up. Beyond that I'm planning on picking up the kindle one of the PC staff is picking up in Australia (thanks again if you're reading this!). I also heard from a couple people that they liked to see the quotes from last week, so I'll add a couple more here for you all to check out.

I was goaded by the pro-independence fighters. One man said to me, ''Autonomy has lost... You must give us your home and land because our homes have been burned by your friends." I answered, "My house and land aren't political, people are political. If you want a house find an empty government building, I won't give up my home." I was attacked by the man's son and friends who broke into my house. They tried to get me out: "Leave quietly. If you don't we'll strip you naked and throw you in the fire." I reported the incident to Interfet... ...but after they left, my house was taken apart, all my plates and glasses were smashed and my furniture, cupboards and wardrobes, were taken. For whom I don't know. I let it happen because these are the consequences of struggle.

~Fernanda dos Reis Araujo Vila Verde, Dili District, 1999

After attacking Manuel Carrascalao's house on 25th April 1999, the militia accused my son of keeping weapons and arrested him. We were taken to the Caicoli Village Office. I watched them beat my son and others from RT 1 Caicoli till they were a bloody mess. Some were stabbed. Some were in so much pain they cried to die. I was so upset I screamed at them to kill them rather than continuing the torture. We were both released that afternoon but others were not. Around May 1999 the TNI found an apelo (a Falantil donor's card) in a friend's home. They asked who had given her the card and she said I had. The TNI took me to the Babinsa in Caicoli village. They mocked me by saying that a woman is of no use in politics, can never become a leader and could only ever be a servant in the forest for Falintil. In other words my only use was as a Falantil concubine.

~Fernanda Soares Liquica and Dili Districts, 1976-1999

These are some extremely powerful stories and are humbling when I think about the ease to which I can live my own life in this time of relative peace. I just hope that these stories can help others gain a better understanding of the struggle the people of Timor have gone through. Because although these are historical accounts, the effect the war had on the people of Timor is real and something that will have a ripple effect for generations to come.

To bring it back to a lighter topic I was able to find the garlic bread in the pictures below a few weeks ago, and that was a wonderful surprise to find here in the land of rice and cassava leaves. I also found this Disney garlic which I think was a wonderful move by the Disney cooperation 😂. These small things keep me feeling chipper when the stress of working in another country weighs on me. I've also found an arcade out here in Baucau which was a cool thing to find, so I can only hope to find time to visit it soon.  I haven't been to a legitimate arcade for years even living in the States!

Well this has been a good stress reliever today, I look forward to writing up the next blog post. Before I sign off though I want to bring attention to the last photo I posted and tell a short story. A week ago I was walking back home from work as usual thinking about if I wanted to pick-up some apple's at the Loja down the street or not. It then hit me that I had never looked up on this path home for the last 3 months I've been here. So upon looking up I discovered a sight that was as eye opening as it was breath taking. I saw Foho Matebian (or the Mountain of the Spirits of the Long dead) it was named this because of the Timorese that were killed there during the resistance fighting. I will link to a blog I found from a Timorese describing the stories he heard as a child (http://karaudikur.blogspot.com/2017/07/foho-matebian-my-favorite-stories.html). So as I do always I'll talk to you later and leave you all with this.

Grit is that 'extra something' that separates the most successful people from the rest. It's the passion, perseverance, and stamina that we must channel in order to stick with our dreams until they become a reality.

~Travis Bradberry

Much Love,

~BW